Mother

By Alicia Wilcox

I apologize for the pain I brought into your heart
My disease of addiction brought us apart
When I wasn’t using we were so close
And one thing you should know I love you the most
I wish I was there with you each and everyday
To help you out and make sure you’re okay
We been going through this for a couple of years
And I know you love me because I’ve seen you shed tears
Tears because I knew I was killing myself…
But my disease of addiction I knew nothing else
I’m real sorry about putting my children through this
Why should they suffer for my sickness?
They should be home asleep in their beds…
This could be a reality, but I choose drugs instead
I want my children in my life which means custody too
One day I’ll be willing to do what I have to
So please be there for me
I won’t let myself or you down again
I love you my mother and I need you to be my friend